Hey there!
Today we’re going to be doing a Cancer Chronicles episode…
unless I get completely derailed, which could happen.
Seriously, this is the third attempt at recording this episode.
The first time I was interrupted by my dog.
The second time I was interrupted by my bowels.
This is a story that I really don’t want to tell.
But I keep hearing it in my head… and every time I tell it to someone close to me, they laugh.
So here we go!
Welcome to Episode 2
This episode is about my first surveillance CT scan after cancer treatment wearing a body that doesn’t have a rhythm yet. Two months out from an ileostomy closure and I still don’t know when I’m going to go to the bathroom, what it’s going to be like, or how long I’m going to be in there.
The CT scan required an hour drive while fasting, and an iodine contrast. Let’s just say, my body went bonkers resulting in two Walmart bathroom stops and so much time spent on the toilet that I realized that Walmart has its own radio station.
We also get into:
the difference between worry, anxiety, and concern
what it means to listen to your body (or not listen to your body)
and how healing doesn’t always look the way you think it will
Sometimes survivorship looks like just trying to make it home and being kind to yourself when your body has other plans.
This shit happens.
Like… it literally happens.
Lova ya!
Jenni
