Birthdays, Butts, and Breaks

I'm calling an audible!

Howdy darlin! Today is my birthday! Or as the AI that called from my dermatologist’s office pronounced it “birth-day”. I choose to call it my “I’m Alive!” day.

$1700 left to raise for the podcast campaign but I’m wiped and calling an audible.
The podcast is under review and I’m taking a birthday break!
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I woke up this morning in a Best Western Hotel room with mixed feelings.

As I was waking up, I thought I was at home, then realized that I wasn’t. That might have been awesome if I were on a true vacation, but this is a med-stay. I do my best to make med-stays as fun as possible. On my way here I went thrifting, ate a great breakfast at a freaking cool little private one runway airport in the middle of nowhere, watched all the streaming stuff I can’t get at home, and had a tube with a camera stuck up my…ahem…rectum.

I would not suggest that last activity as a fun thing to do on your med-stay unless you really get off at looking inside your body.

My mantra for the last 8 months has been: ”I have a healthy shiny pink rectum!”. If you’re not up on your rectum knowledge, this is what you want- shiny, smooth, pink goodness. Well, my rectum looks alot better than it did 8 months ago- there’s a little damage from the radiation and chemo but lots of shiny pink. Smooth? Yes and no. She removed three polyps (little bumps) to send for biopsy. And there was a big gray area right as we left the rectum.

Wow! What a segway! Because I was planning on talking about gray areas!

I am once again living in the gray area- there is no black and white in my cancer journey. On the one hand, my MRI came out clear. On the other hand, my surgeon isn’t convinced about the results because the MRI wasn’t done on “their machine” and read by “their reader”. And, it turns out, that even if the MRI and biopsies are 100% clear, surgery is highly recommended. BLAH! More will be revealed on Monday.

Today, I am celebrating my life! AND, living in the gray areas. They wouldn’t be so gray if I weren’t feeling exhausted. I’ve had 7 major life things happen in one week- most of which will not be noted here. I need a break. And the only person that is going to give that to me is me.

So. I’m calling an audible. FULL STOP! Break time!

I was going to write more- but that wouldn’t be a full stop would it???
Love ya lots!
Jenni